I'm having the worst month of my life. Everything is going downhill from here. i gotta pick myself up. ain't nobody can help me now besides myself. i never realized how weak i was until this point. it has to change now. i'm tired of absorbing all the unneccessary things in life. mother told me i can move, then she starts making me feel guilty. sorry. i've been acting like an idiot. i need to get away. i really do. . . . . for all you happy people, pls keep it that way. i have everything, i've been given everything i need, want, but i just keep acting up. all i want to do now at this point of my life is to go out & try to make myself happy, because no one can do that anymore. my dad don't want me living w/ him because he can't take care of me or look out for me. neither can my brother or his gf. so i have no choice but to stay here & try to live life. graduate. then party. i had a motivation. although, all it is is pulling me down. it's not my motivation anymore, it's my motivation to fail in what i wanted to succeed in. i need to sort everything out from A-Z. my priorities have been jacked up because of my past relationship. i can't believe i did that. I'm guessing it was Japan. I'm going to try & get myself together, then boys will come after. When I leave, I got a crib to go to
That I got myself straight out of high school
So if you comin' at me, be ready
Cause there aint no way imma let somebody play me Wow, and to think that we were going to last. It's alright, I'm just happy for him, & i'm happy for myself because now I dont' have to stress anymore. I ain't never gon love nobody no more, that's a promise that I'll make for myself. watch out suckaassss.
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I feel like a kindergartener